Let’s start at the beginning, this is not a spiteful text, I am not heartbroken, or even mourning the death of a once existing love. The thing that dawned on me today, is that the only love I need is the love of myself. Loving one other person romantically drains you, makes you weak, dependent and just pathetic to be honest. All these expectations, a fairy tale ending, endless love, are all lies. Most people that are in romantic relationships, just cannot bear the thought of being alone. The bitter truth. They hop from one relationship to the next, like there is no tomorrow. And for them, there is no tomorrow if they wake up to a seamlessly empty bed. They cannot imagine spending any time in solitude. The need to be loved overwhelms them, it is vicious and makes them bend themselves to the will of the poor pathetic soul that comes their way. Of course there are some rare cases when people are self fulfilled and want to share this fulfillment with each other, but let’s be realistic, these people are one in a million or even less.
Speaking of the fact that one cannot bear the sound of their own messy, anxious, and sometimes dumb thoughts, drives this generation’s interest in finding someone to lay with. Though the more I think about it, the more I see that it applies not only to this generation, but to all people alike. Make babies, get married, put up with each other’s shit, this is what is expected of people, that’s what society drills into our heads since we pop out of our poor mothers. But let’s put things into perspective.
Yes, we love our parents, and they love us, however, people tend to destroy each other, some like drops of water poured slowly but steadily, and others like explosions that blow your mind to pieces. And being with a person, most likely leads to having progeny, they in turn, are affected by the destruction happening at home. Hence, this is an endless vicious cycle.
There is no real point to this article, but to tell you to think if you really love the person you are with, or you just dread being alone and „miserable” as our society portrays people that don’t have a romantic relationship. And if, and only if you said that you are more afraid of being alone than you love the person waking up next to you, maybe you should look in the mirror and take a walk out of that person’s life, cause you need each other just to fill an endless void, that you will only be able to fill if you face yourself.
Ideas in the night 