I promise that this time will be different
The wind will run through my hair ,
The sun will caress my skin
I will be free.
This time I will not lean towards you, or him or her,
Or anyone else for that matter.
I will lean onto myself, my strength, my pain.
It will be hard but it will be different
Remember that this time I will be different
And you will not see my eyes
And I will not look at you the way I used to
And I will be a perfect stranger to the one I used to love.
You will not know of where I am
Or who I’m with, or what I’m doing
I’ll change everything about myself
I will be ruthless and heartless and I will care so little that the winter snow will seem so warm compared to my broken bitter heart.